Sup!

Hey back to blogger again been months since i posted a new post...More into facebook nowadays hahaz.Jus deleted my profile pic at facebook.Why?I'm not sure...Waiting 4 something good to happen at the end of the month b4 i post my profile pic again...I feel that im seriously changing this year.Not the phsiycal change.The mental and emotional change...I have the feeling that i need to change however this makes me neglect my studies...I'm sad and confused...:( I need hard cash to give me a sense of sercurity however i tend so spend most of my money this year.Its so difficult that  finally saved up $200 over dollars in 1 month but it turns out that my needs cost more than that amt...Need a new phone badly as well and a new pair of sch shoes and my needs = $380? Need to save 4 1 more month.I don mnd saving up but i mind spendin it...And i still need to watch movies during this month WTH!! Cant conrol myself.......And June holidays are coming soon if i over spend my 2 months hard save cash,i may be penniless during june holidays so how!!!!???FUSTRATED!!!!
Today in sch i feel very tired...Slp 4 most of my lessons except history as the teacher is somehow similar to a tigress...Will tml be better i'm not sure...P.E tml i wan to run with Her she gives me the strength and endurance to push on but i'm scared...I seriously don noe why but i am scared...Whats wrong with me?I'm going crazy during my last year in secondary sch its my 'O' Levels i'm not nervous bout it at all.Wha if i failed?
After posting all that i feel better...
Now for something lame hahaz :p
How would i look if i wear contact lenses,short spiky hair,pokka dotted bagpack,DJ head phones hung over my neck with my DJ beat playing music?Oh and not forgetting my sunglasses!!!
Nice?Can i doubt myself?I trust myself only...4 so many years its so difficult 4 me to change this fact...Why am i born?Was it because of you?
I miss you...I want to say i like you but i'm scared and i do not have the confidence to do it...
Where is the couragerous wei yang that was within me physically and mentally during my primary sch times?I really need your help now.Why did you leave me alone after Pri 6?I cant focus on my studies and im jus a low-confient average guy now...I wan to be Unique...I wan to have my own style my own taste and not follow what others say blindly...Just because something is IN now doesn't means that it will last 4ever...
Whats wrong with me?
Next monday going 4 part D Trainfire and IMT hahaz so long nvr go play with guns le!Next saturday life-firing YES!!!Finally!Something to be excited about however i still feel lost...